My COVID Journey

It appears that the limit of our national vigilance is somewhere around three months. We descended from the unified heights of staying home and supporting those of us on the front lines to a fit-for-cable news battle over the political philosophy of a face covering. It was only three short months after the shut down that many states decided that the crisis was over and the people had had enough. The push to get the economy going again led to the opening up of bars, salons, restaurants, and public beaches. This was in spite of the fact that the cases in those states had not been falling for very long and were far from zero. The coronavirus had different plans. These states are now shutting back down again.

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There has been talk from the very beginning of the pandemic of a concern of a “second wave” of infections that could hit after the first surge dies down. The idea that the virus could come back again after going away is based on historical precedent. The spanish flu had such a pattern. There were 3 distinct waves of illness during that pandemic, starting in March 1918 and subsiding by summer of  1919. The pandemic peaked in the U.S. during the second wave, in the fall of 1918. This highly fatal second wave was responsible for most of the U.S. deaths attributed to the pandemic and was reason for concern with COVID-19. Considering how bad the first wave was it was quite scary to think that this first wave was the “small” bump on the graph. There will be no second wave.

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I have had a recent change in uniform at the hospital.  Just like everyone else I continue to wear a surgical mask all the time (unless I’m in my private office) but previously, when going into the COVID-19 patients’ rooms, I would double mask with a surgical mask on top of an N95.  If you want to try this at home, put on an N95 mask then a surgical mask on top of that.  Then put on a gown and gloves.  Next, go into a room with a negative pressure device that makes as much noise as industrial fan.  Alternatively, put a garbage bag over your head, tie it around your neck, turn on a vacuum cleaner, and then try to have conversation with someone who is deathly ill.  You have no idea the extent of the heroism of frontline health workers in this pandemic who suffer through this for hours upon hours, day after day. 

Continue reading “Do masks really help?” →

I’m writing this half asleep having just finished a night shift in the ICU. The air in the hospital had been much more relaxed over the past few weeks. After several weeks of double digit COVID patients in the ICU, we were down to only one. There was a period where the ER had not seen a new case in several days. The masks were getting a bit looser. The situation was even more relaxed around town as the governmental restrictions are easing and we are moving through the “phases”. All the doctors and nurses I know, however, were not at ease. After watching the protests over the killing of George Floyd, we worried about the triggering of a second wave.

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The issue of asymptomatic spread of SARS CoV-2 has cast a cloud over the pandemic. We as humans are hardwired to fear that which is invisible more than that which is visible. The idea that thousands of individuals could be walking around spreading the virus without knowing it is truly terrifying. I sometimes find myself looking at everyone as as a threat, not just those with a cough. Unfortunately, as with everything else in this pandemic, the virus doesn’t seem to care about our anxieties and is intent on spreading any way it pleases. The day supporting asymptomatic spread has strongly influenced the recommendations for mask wearing that (almost) all of us have been following.

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Human beings really hate uncertainty in a way that impacts our lives in many profound ways. We will predictably choose to stay in a bad situation rather than make a choice of uncertain outcome. How many people have stayed in bad relationships, bad jobs, or bad living environments even going out on their own may make things better but not for certain. It is for this reason that a pandemic such as this is so maddening. This is a new virus that we do not know much about but the situation is so severe that we are desperate for tiny snippets of hope. People understandably expect the information from the scientific authorities to be clear, accurate, and unchanging. Unfortunately the current reality is not conducive to information that is always clear, accurate, or unchanging.

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This post will attempt to answer the following questions:

1. Why is this pandemic making us unhappy?
2. Why are the guidelines and recommendations always changing?
3. Why can’t they make up their minds?
4. How can I feel happier in this time?

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This post will attempt to answer the following questions:

1. Is the coronavirus mutating?
2. What does that mean?
3. Should I be worried about this?
4. What can I do if the virus is mutating?

As if things aren’t scary enough with the illness, deaths, fear of invisible virus particles, and economic meltdown the news media has done what they do best and added to our collective anxiety. May 5th there was a report published in the Los Angeles Times that a “a now-dominant strain of the coronavirus could be more contagious than [the] original.”. This was based on the online posting of a pre-print of a research study that describing a new “strain” of the novel coronavirus. This new “strain”, the team wrote, “began spreading in Europe in early February.” Whenever it appeared in a new place, including the U.S., it rapidly rose to dominance. Its success, the team suggested, is likely due to a single mutation, which is now “of urgent concern.”

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It was what seems like years ago that I locked myself in my basement sick with COVID-19. It was way back when when the numbers were all going up, no one knew how to make a homemade face mask, and most people had never heard of Zoom. While I was down there in my basement feverish and achy I had an experience that I did not put a lot of thought into at the time. I was too bewildered and overwhelmed by the state of the world to pay too much attention but one phone call I received may turn out to be the secret to safely opening our society up again.

Continue reading “Why contact tracing is so crucial” →