This post will answer these questions:
- What is so terrifying about COVID-19?
- Why should I care?
- How could this affect me or my loved ones?
I am grateful to be convalescing well from my infection. The cough overnight was still a nuisance, but the cough syrup allows me to sleep. My aches and chills are almost gone and I haven’t had a fever in 2 days. This is all good news. The reality is that I was never so terribly ill nor was I afraid for my health at any time. I was the first of my friends, family, and coworkers to be officially diagnosed with COVID-19 and was their first one degree connection to this disease, I received a truly heartwarming show of encouragement and support which I appreciated then and now greatly. It is so nice to know people care and are thinking of you.
At the same time, it was strange for me. There was a disconnect between my optimism over my prospects for recovery and the tone of the well wishes I was receiving. In my head there was no concern for my own health, but the messages I heard from others were as if I was suffering from a condition with a high mortality. I wasn’t exactly sure how to respond. I have thought a lot about it (I have more time to think than I have space to move here in the basement). I believe the problem stems from the fact that people are not receiving a clear and concise message as to why this pandemic is so frightening. They are receiving little snippets of information from many sources of variable quality and reliability, and they are receiving them in a disorganized, disjointed, and disconnected way.
This is compounded because the news media makes their money by stimulating subconscious fears to get your views and clicks. Meanwhile, the official and government websites are a repository of clear and accurate information, but present that information in a sterile and impersonal way. This makes it very difficult to relate to. It’s amazing how a government website can give you the online feeling of waiting in line at the DMV.
All of this combines, I think, to create a general sense of anxiety which is unfocused. This, of course, makes the anxiety worse. I think people have a hard time (unless, of course, they have a loved one who is critically ill with the virus) internalizing how real the situation is.
So when people heard that I had COVID-19 they knew that it was scary, they just didn’t know why. They did what any caring human being would do under the circumstances; they worried about me and tried to help by offering well wishes and advice for my own health and recovery. While I certainly appreciated this, I wasn’t personally afraid.
I wasn’t afraid until yesterday.
Then I saw an Instagram video from Peter Attia who is a physician with expertise in the science of longevity. That background gives him a good understanding of epidemiology and statistics. He also has a staff that can analyze data and he analyzed the data of the pandemic in New York, the epicenter of the pandemic in the United States. It is likely that other locations will follow although where and to what extent is not clear. To summarize the salient points as clearly as I can:
- There are about 1000 ICU beds in New York City. You could repurpose other beds in the hospitals (e.g. surgical or pediatric ICU beds, step down units, and post op areas) but you can never fully empty those beds. Lets assume you can get the number of COVID ICU beds up to between 1500 and 2000.
- The question is will the rate of COVID ICU patients be greater than the number of COVID ICU beds. All models are pointing to an emphatic yes.
- On Friday 3/20 there were about 150 ICU cases in New York.
- On Saturday 3/21 in the morning there were between 300 and 330.
- On Sunday night 3/22 there were about 450.
- On Monday 3/23 there were about 621.
- Those numbers speak for themselves.
Dr. Attia worked out the numbers to imagine the things that must happen for the healthcare system in New York to not become overwhelmed. For that to be the case the following has to happen:
- As of Monday night 3/23 not a single new person in New York can get a new infection. This means there can be no contact between a non infected person and an infected person or an infected surface (have you been to New York!?!)
- There can be no more than 3 times as many cases as there are reported positive tests. Remember, we’re not testing everyone (see my previous post on why not everyone can be tested). Since we’re not testing everyone it is not entirely clear how many people are infected relative to the numbers that are being tallied. It is quite probable than far more than 3 times as many people are infected as have tested positive. Also, remember from prior posts, it takes between 2 and 7 days from infection before people get symptoms and a few more days before they get need ICU. This means that there are thousands of people who are currently infected and do not know yet.
- No more than 3-3.5% of infected patients will require ICU (currently about 5% of New Yorkers with COVID-19) are requiring the ICU
Of course, none of this is possible. What this all means is
New York will most likely become overwhelmed with COVID ICU patients, its only a question of when (other cities may be soon to follow).
Just like all things COVID-19 that is a difficult thing to put your head around. It sounds scary but the fear does not always seem tangible. The following is an account from a physician in Italy who is in the middle of the crisis. It was forwarded on a Whatsapp physician group I follow but unfortunately it did not include his name so I cannot give him proper reference (I have made some grammatical and spelling corrections to make it more readable. I added in parentheses some explanations of jargon and bolded things that caught my attention). It speaks for itself.
You can see that the Italian experience is horrifying. They are now seeing younger patients with a high mortality and their system is completely overwhelmed. It seems quite likely that something similar will happen in New York – how similar-I don’t know, but I’m afraid to find out.
Other issues to consider are the downstream effects.
- Hospitals are not empty. There are patients who are critically ill for other reasons, what is going to become of them? What will be for all the heart attack, stroke, and pneumonia patients we see on a regular basis?
- The more patients a physician has to see the harder it is for them to provide quality care.
- This is in addition to the problem of the doctors and nurses themselves are getting sick.
These two new pieces of information have changed how I view this crisis. I received wonderful displays of support from people who were concerned but their concern was for my health. The concern should be more for the entire community and the country. We must strictly adhere to the government restrictions on movement at all cost. It will undoubtedly save lives. Remember that the best case scenario in New York is likely an impossibility. That is where you can impact this pandemic. If you think that since you’re young like me you won’t be affected, look to the Italian physician who was seeing younger and younger patients as the pandemic progressed. It may be that the demographics are shifting. We have to assume and prepare for the worst, while hoping and praying that we are all wrong.
The news media is too nebulous and sensationalist. The government is too sterile and impersonal. The pandemic has not been real for people but it just got real for me. For this reason, I am going to implore you to forward this message to everyone you know. Send it to friends, family, and strangers. Post it on every social media platform as any times as you can. Shout it from the rooftops. You can play a vital role which could save countless lives. Let’s get to work!
Coronavirus Plea From Johns Hopkins. Baltimore Sun 3/24/20
13 thoughts on “Why I'm Afraid”
Daniel,Although difficult to read and hard to fathom thank you so much for taking the time to write this and bring us this information.LisaSent from my Verizon, Samsung Galaxy smartphone
Thank you Dr. Grove for taking the time in continuing to educate all of us. We only know what people are telling us from the news. This message from people experiencing this first hand needs to continue to grow. Thank you.
Very informative. Thank you!
Thank you Dr. Grove!
I have a question: Does being vaccinated for pneumonia have any bearing on of getting lighter case of this corona virus?
It is truly sad what is happening to all of us around the world, God help us.
I do not think people are taking this yet seriously.
sorry but the pneumonia vaccine does not protect against COVID
Of the blogs you’ve posted so far, this one really terrified me. As you said, it just hasn’t been “real”. I’ll be sharing it everywhere, and can only pray our country’s leadership takes it as seriously as it needs to be taken.
Thanks for your update. So glad you are feeling better. Keep us posted. I text your mom and try to keep up with her.
I am a physician in Atlanta, I think that we have some common friends. Wonderful post. I would love to connect with you.
how long are children contagious from when they are exposed to coronovirus? is it 14 days such as adults or more?
Children should be contagious for the same amount of time. The problem is that they are more likely to be asymptomatic and you don’t know when their contagious “clock” started. This is one of the great challenges of this virus. The children get infected but do not get sick and are likely very good at unwittingly spreading the virus around
I’m in Tucson Feeling pretty afraid and anxious
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It’s important to remember that, even with rising cases, the overwhelming odds are that each individual will be OK if you take the appropriate precautions. Be careful, don’t be fearful.
Hang in there. Be careful but don’t be fearful. The vast majority of people who get sick have mild disease, even in high risk categories.